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Hi dear friends who read this very non-happening blog. I will be entering into army tomorrow so my posts would be even more irregular.

Do keep me in prayer as I believe I will relive old fears.

Anyway the law interview on April 9 went terribly. Was asked whether a man who suffered a heart attack would be obliged to pay a passer-by doctor $1000(market rate). My views were: well he is not obliged, but I didnt know how to complete my sentence. I guess it was nerves which led to a mental block. Oh well, maybe next year I'll try again, with more preparation. It's a painful lesson well learnt.

Army here I come!

A Lifestyle Changed

Once we realise that our lives and all that we have belong to God, and surrender our lives' ambitions and plans to Him, we have truly learnt to live life to the fullest.

I am all sold out for Him now. Yet I know I'm worth no less than purest gold.

You sought me out

among the multitudes

given me a hope

beyond despair

A mouthpiece

to the lost

is my heart's cry

but first, O God

heal my heart.

Busy as can be

Bees work non stop, almost never resting. I feel the same way too. University admissions and applying for scholarships are too much of a chore. (what more work.family.church) And I can't reject my friends who want me to write recommendations from them can I? Jesus never said it would be easy to be His witness in the world, but that He will be with us and lift us up. I believe the things I reap would ultimate bear fruit during harvest time.

I'm extremely excited as I received a call from SMU informing me that I have an interview on April 9, which is Ee Ling's birthday, at the Faculty of Law, Seminar room 3-3. I actually forgot the time I am to report so I'll wait for the confirmation via email. Is this the path that You want me to take o God? I would feel very miserable if I went for it and didn't get through. I'm going to fast and pray about it.

I felt really depressed, when I went back home, no one bothered to ask how I did or even acknowledge my presence at all. Dinner was extremely disappointing, but I can't blame my mum, she had a terrible day at work, doing some manual labour for less than 5 bucks for a whole day. So after dinner I went around trying to get a decent meal, and saw a guy biting or licking his girlfriend's hair in broad daylight at the food court. I guess such things occur so that we bystanders can really laugh at them and ruefully feel better. My expectations run counterwise to reality, and I thought they cared. Not even a pinch of concern coming from ___,___ and ___.

God's goodness

Even through the storms and struggles and sins that I had to go through in 2008, God has been faithful. I see now the reason why He has placed me in MJC, where I can do well, instead of some other top notch JCs... How undeserving I am, yet God has given me quite a good set of grades, and what can I say but tremble in awe of His marvellous provision. I got Bs for Gp and Literature(H2), the rest As.

Now boggled down by the complexity of university admissions...And having lots of problems trying to figure out how to apply for SATs, so that I may stand a chance to get into Law.

A day of many occurences

Yesterday, there were so many disparate events that happened and overall it was a bad, bad day.

1. Met Stephanie Sun Yan Zi at a Holland Village medical clinic (at Silver Cross and she really disguised herself well, an aunty pointed her out to me before I realised that the dark, bony, tall girl with dark long fairly highlighted hair was the singer herself)
2. Told to go through a typhoid injection (and all this while I have been handling tea without a permit? )
3. Saw a group of ten guys buy bubble tea after a pretty girl bought a few with her mum from my shop. (must I say how amused I were, even though they were from ACS-International, they still seem quite infantile in their thinking. )
4. Given a lecture by my uncle about my obsession with Christianity (not the first time, but this time I made my stand clear )
5. Observed real terrible business and really sultry faces on everyone in boon tong kee. (thus I had to lower down my tone and optimistic expression)
6. Met Sandy while working at Boon Tong Kee (hahaha quite embarassing and funny)
7. Missed a stop and had to pay 10 cents more. ( All due to Short term memory! I thought I left my ezlink card on the seat and went back up to the 2nd level only to remember that it is on my bag's pocket. And so that 1 mistake cost me a lot)
8. Had a conversation with Jun Hao. Am worried and discouraged by his response, which led me think about how terrible I am in discipling people.

And I really enjoyed Valentine's day with my cell group. With Sybil and Joy, with Glenn, with Cornelius's family and with Cheryl, though it was a few precious minutes.

The joys and pains of serving God

I really enjoy saturdays and sundays, for this is the time that I can restore myself after slogging so hard for the entire week. I taught my cell group, Petra bible study on the topic: Applying God's Word into my life. Although I was jittery at the start since Ee Ling was there(stress), overall the lesson went quite smoothly(according to her:)). Hoped the point was driven across that God's Word is not boring if studied properly using SPACEPETS.

Grateful for God that He has brought Jasper, my 13 year old cousin to church with me. Really surprised to see him because his father is quite against Christianity for some reason. He joined my YPMS class and I hoped he made new friends and will continue to meet up with them and ultimately come to the saving knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

Also thank God for the Petra core group meeting I had after church. Frankly, it was one of the more enlightening and encouraging meeting we had. Was clarified about certain nagging doubts once and for all, was he really sincere in the first place? My heart was broken when I knew what the leaders are going through yet at the same time I am stirred by their passion for their sheep, that they are still clinging on inspite of it. Reminds me of my family, which is supposed to be a place where love abounds, but choked with all kinds of malice, apathy and negligence.

God as you have entrusted Cornelius, Terence and Jun Hao unto me, help me to be accountable for them. I forsee so many obstacles and hardened hearts. Only You can tenderise their hearts. And also I am encouraged by Jeremy, Samuel, Glenn, Jun Hao, Sandy, Krystel's faithfulness in serving in YPMS. Help me to know them better too, I see some unpolished gems :)